My beloved Malachi

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baby, baby boy, first child, Identity, juggling parenthood, Life, losing self, Malachi, mixed emotions, mommy, mommy's boy, new mom, Parenting, sonogram, stay at home mommy, truth, who am I

 

I have loved you since the first sonogram

I just miss me, don’t get me wrong

I’m scared I don’t know who I am anymore

Since you started calling me mommy

My name is Melanie

I know I am Your mommy

I have loved you since the first sonogram

I just miss me, don’t get me wrong

I love to look at your beautiful tiny face

I particularly enjoy the cuddles of your sweet embrace

I have loved you since the first sonogram

I just miss me, don’t get me wrong

Sometimes I just need some space

To find out how to wear my new mommy face

So I can be a better mommy to you dear

And not give in to the fear

That the person I was before you arrived

has somewhat been lost and died

for I know she’s still inside

patiently waiting to be revived

I have loved you since the first sonogram

I just miss me, don’t get me wrong

 

Perspective

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alone, boy, break ups, challenges, Confessions of the heart, emotional, girl, hearts, Love, reality, truth

I’m better for having been with you

but I’m no better being without you

 

© Melanie Arendse

Hopeful break ???

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boy, break ups, challenges, Confessions of the heart, emotions, girl, God, hearts, him, hope, hopeless romantic, Life, Love, lovers, lust, paradigm shift, reality, Relationships, Romance, sad heart, truth, truths

Title : The Palm      Photo Credits : Rudy Sands Photography

 

We never thought this would be us

love turned into short lived pleasures and lusts

Oh how? I felt like it was all my fault

after this break up left me out in the cold

 

yet I’ll surrender my heart

so the healing can start

accepting that I can’t make you stay

even when my heart yearns for you today

I release and trust that God above

if need be will treasure and restore this Love

 

and if  perhaps-NOT

at least we, i  LOVED

 

© Melanie Arendse

 

Liefding (Love thing)

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boy, Confessions, Confessions of the heart, contention, emotional, forgiveness, future, heart, hearts, hope, liefding, Love, plans, poetry, real life, Relationships, Romance, strife, truth, truths

hope flickers like a candle in the wind

as volumes of love is dailed up on its full

even when we are full of strife  and contention

hung up on plans of the future

adeqaucy challenged,

forgiveness questioned?

despite all faults,

past loves,

past hurts,

infidelty caused,

hope still flickers like a candle in the wind

as we make plans for OUR future

we will have strife and contention

YET Our love dial is turned up on it’s FULL

© Melanie Arendse

 

 

 

∆7

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boy, challenges, Confessions of the heart, confusion, friends, hearts, him, Life, Love, Major seventh, music, Percussion man, Whimsical

Needing & wanting him

Feeling pain, sadness

When we part

My crazy heart

Has become whimsical

In its telling

Openly displaying

Heart wrenching

Confusion

Nostalgia &

Melancholy at the

Thought of losing him

And not being with him

© Melanie Arendse

Sun Ode

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beauty, celebrations, Clouds, Life, light, Nature, Ode, poetry, reality, Sky, Sun, sunrise, time, truth, warmth

Sun kissed by the sky

As time passes by

Jealous clouds caving

From side to side

Trying to hide the light

Enamored by its beauty

Warmth and life

© Melanie Arendse

Simplicity

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Boyfriend, happiness, hearts, her, him, Love, New love, Relationships, Romance

He makes me happy

He makes me smile

He is my happy

He is my smile

© Melanie Arendse

Reflections

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1976, celebrations, challenges, change, commemorating, Culture, education, future, Hector Pieterson, History, honour, hope, June 16, looking back, rising up, south africa, soweto uprising, stronger, Thankful, youth day

Rising

Out

Of

Yesterday’s

Debris

A

Bold

Generation

Creating

Platforms

For

Growth &

Development

Tapping into

Higher

Education

Taking

Nothing

For granted

Privildged

That those

who went

before us

Laid a path

However crooked

It may have seemed

We are – Tomorrow

because

They were – Yesterday

© Melanie Arendse

Photo credits * (Hector Pieterson’s dead body being carried – jeffsouthafrica.blogspot.com)

Silent God

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alone, Christianity, conversations with Jesus, crying, Faith, God, hope, intense, lost, perserverence, praying, silence, trust, unanswered prayers

Loud prayers offered to a silent God

That’s how I feel at times when I seek you

Sometimes you  never answer even though I scream

More loudly, more intensly when my prayers heave out

Out of my chest, my heart and as my eyes are drenched

I STILL continue to offer loud prayers to a silent God

Hoping

Trusting

All in Faith

I offer Loud  prayers to a silent God

© Melanie Arendse

Birthday Blues

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abandonment, Birth Mother, birthday blues, celebrations, childhood, Confessions of the heart, daughter, forgotten birthdays, getting older, heart, Life, pain, truths

Another tear

Coz

Another year

She’s forgotten

And my heart goes rotten

A stench I know too well

Yet can’t seem to tell

Why it rises this day

Simply to decay

My very heart, mind and soul

As this day tells me I’m getting old

Another tear

Coz

Another year

She’s forgotten

And my heart goes rotten

© Melanie Arendse